I have always been the type to be able to handle alot...I have had my fair share of disappointments in my life. But the last year has completely drained me.
I was married for 18 years (unhappy but financially comfortable), I was a stay at home mom for 12 years, helped put my ex through college. Last june my divorce was final. I have struggled financially and emotionally but kept it together for my two daughters that live with me. My ex hardly ever sees them, he is too busy hunting, fishing and dating....constantly. Yes I may have some sour grapes, because i devoted my life to him and my children and now I still devote my life to my kids and he is still devoting his life to himself. I finally decided to start dating and had a few bad dates but met this wonderful man. He was absolutely everything I had ever wanted, everything I wished my ex had been. We talked for hours everyday and spent every weekend together, just having fun. I finally started realizing that I could enjoy life and be a great mom. He even went as far as to tell me he was falling in love with me. Then I found out my mom had alzheimers. Her memory has been going for a while, but recently it has gotten consistently worse. My dad asked if I would move in with them to help out. So I gave up my single life and am now rasing my two daughters and taking care of my aging parents. But I still had my dream man. He was my savior. Then the bomb hit....I found out he was still married. The depression still hasnt worn off. Now on saturday, one of my 17 year old son's best friends was killed in a car accident in wise county. My son lives with his dad, but I was the first phone call he made when he found out. I just saw this young man a week ago and I got a huge hug and kiss on the cheek...little did I know that his light would soon be extinguished.
Would everyone please pray for his family, for my son (who has lost a dear friend and has had his world rocked by a horrible tragedy), for my parents...that there suffering will not worsen and for them to find a peace in their lives, for a man that doesnt deserve any prayers but please pray for him that he will find happiness in his marriage or find the courage to leave. And lastly for me...please pray to give me the strength to get through this...for the wisdom to help my kids and hopefully to find someone to share my life with. I pray daily for strength and I know God only gives you what you can handle...but sometimes my faith waivers when I realize the burden that is on me.
thanks Hornfans....
I was married for 18 years (unhappy but financially comfortable), I was a stay at home mom for 12 years, helped put my ex through college. Last june my divorce was final. I have struggled financially and emotionally but kept it together for my two daughters that live with me. My ex hardly ever sees them, he is too busy hunting, fishing and dating....constantly. Yes I may have some sour grapes, because i devoted my life to him and my children and now I still devote my life to my kids and he is still devoting his life to himself. I finally decided to start dating and had a few bad dates but met this wonderful man. He was absolutely everything I had ever wanted, everything I wished my ex had been. We talked for hours everyday and spent every weekend together, just having fun. I finally started realizing that I could enjoy life and be a great mom. He even went as far as to tell me he was falling in love with me. Then I found out my mom had alzheimers. Her memory has been going for a while, but recently it has gotten consistently worse. My dad asked if I would move in with them to help out. So I gave up my single life and am now rasing my two daughters and taking care of my aging parents. But I still had my dream man. He was my savior. Then the bomb hit....I found out he was still married. The depression still hasnt worn off. Now on saturday, one of my 17 year old son's best friends was killed in a car accident in wise county. My son lives with his dad, but I was the first phone call he made when he found out. I just saw this young man a week ago and I got a huge hug and kiss on the cheek...little did I know that his light would soon be extinguished.
Would everyone please pray for his family, for my son (who has lost a dear friend and has had his world rocked by a horrible tragedy), for my parents...that there suffering will not worsen and for them to find a peace in their lives, for a man that doesnt deserve any prayers but please pray for him that he will find happiness in his marriage or find the courage to leave. And lastly for me...please pray to give me the strength to get through this...for the wisdom to help my kids and hopefully to find someone to share my life with. I pray daily for strength and I know God only gives you what you can handle...but sometimes my faith waivers when I realize the burden that is on me.
thanks Hornfans....
