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The worst week of my life turned into two, then a month. It's hard to breathe, I get aches in my chest and back. I have not slept more than 2 hours a night in over a month. The pain keeps me awake at night and keeps me from being productive while I'm at work. I don't see a way out anymore or when or how this will get better. She is gone and she is never coming back. Where are my friends when I need them the most? Were any of these people ever really my friends?
The only time I feel alright is after 8 or 9 drinks, but that is a path I'm deathly afraid of. I'm thinking about going to see a counselor or possibly taking some anti-depression drugs. Does counseling or a psychologist help? I've never done anything like that before, but I'm afraid I will be fired if I don't snap out of this and improve things at the job I hate. I don't know that "talking about it" will help things, because I see a lot of people who dwell on their problems so much it becomes worse than the original problem. I also don't know if meds will help, but I'm willing to give it a try at this point. I've spent a month soul-searching and looking for reasons, but nothing has come. The sad and depressed version of me has a lot of friends staying away, so I need to find a way to end this in order to move on, keep existing and make new friends, and find a new love.
I am glad so many caring people are here to talk to. It really helps to vent and know there are others out there, and to receive their help through words and prayers. While my problems are emotional and hopefully shortterm over a few months to a year, I know there are others more deserving of your prayers and support. Please just throw in an extra word for me at the end. Thank you very much.
The only time I feel alright is after 8 or 9 drinks, but that is a path I'm deathly afraid of. I'm thinking about going to see a counselor or possibly taking some anti-depression drugs. Does counseling or a psychologist help? I've never done anything like that before, but I'm afraid I will be fired if I don't snap out of this and improve things at the job I hate. I don't know that "talking about it" will help things, because I see a lot of people who dwell on their problems so much it becomes worse than the original problem. I also don't know if meds will help, but I'm willing to give it a try at this point. I've spent a month soul-searching and looking for reasons, but nothing has come. The sad and depressed version of me has a lot of friends staying away, so I need to find a way to end this in order to move on, keep existing and make new friends, and find a new love.
I am glad so many caring people are here to talk to. It really helps to vent and know there are others out there, and to receive their help through words and prayers. While my problems are emotional and hopefully shortterm over a few months to a year, I know there are others more deserving of your prayers and support. Please just throw in an extra word for me at the end. Thank you very much.