Longhorny630
1,000+ Posts
And why the hell did I pick such a hard major? Freaking engineering, 90% guys and an assload of work, so I could spend 400 days of unemployment (unless you count mowing lawns and census work as employment) and counting with absolutely no end in sight. It's not like I didn't see it coming, my whole life I've fallen through the cracks one way or the other. Time and time again, when I'm all lined up to finally break through and achieve something some unknown force just comes along and fucks everything up. I wanted to play baseball in high school more than anything, but what do you know, there's no freshmen team in a school of 3000 ******* kids and a guy with a god damn broken arm (which he broke punching a wall after being called for a foul in basketball) makes the team ahead of me (and 90 other kids) because he was in the stands during the tryouts. That's fine, I'll run cross country instead. So I work my *** off in that for four years, and when I'm finally ready to get recruited, I miss my entire senior track season from an injury in the first meet, a god damn practice meet. 4 long years of early mornings and hard *** workouts down the drain, all for a practice meet. I have never and will never get over that. So I go to UT, major in engineering since it's my kind of work and seems to be a reliable way to get a job. I put 4 long years of work into that as well complete with internships and part time work, and what do you know, my senior year some greedy ******** in new york who aren't satisfied with their millions a year salaries decide to **** over the entire country, leaving me with no job, no money, not even a girlfriend. Without any of that, what the hell is the point in living? I get to go around a deal with ******** all day who are either too lazy or too stupid to fill out a damn census form, and once that ends in a couple weeks I guess i'll go apply at mcdonalds or some ****, even though i've been applying there and am most likely being rejected because i'm overqualified and they don't want to hire somebody who is going to bail at a moments notice. I've honestly contemplated lying on my job applications to some of these places, not to add to my list of accomplishments, but to remove them and make me burger flipping material, plus, I generally try to hide the fact that I went to UT when applying to jobs like that to save the university the embarrassment of having educated such a failure. i'd almost be happier if companies quit calling me and interviewing me, because the 'come down' when you get rejected after getting your hopes up or the gradual realization that you didn't get the job when your phone stops ringing and they don't call you back is worse than just being able to say i ain't getting no ******* job and to move on to something else. i honestly hope that i am just the one that fell through the crack and that nobody else has to go through this **** cause it is brutal on the mind having absolutely no purpose in life, no reason to be alive, the feeling that the world would be the absolute same had you never been born.